in all honesty, i think the reason that i get attached to people who i really like, is because i’m such a hateful person. i find flaws in everybody that i meet, and after a while, they really start to bother me. the smallest/dumbest thing could make me not want to even look at somebody. so when i find someone who fits my definition of perfect, then i just get really possessive. i’ve only found 3 guys that have came close to being ‘perfect’. idk. and with all of them, at one point or another we liked each other. and then as each of them walked out, it felt like i’ll never find anyone like them again. i need to stop getting attached once i find someone that i really like/love because it’s only ended up hurting me. but each one of them taught me something and greatly impacted my life in various ways. i’ve tried lowering my standards but that just makes me unhappy.
i’m sick of this scene, i need a break in routine.
